You know you've got it bad when...

Well, today was supposed to be stay-at-home-and-do-assignments-and-study-because-finals-is-near-day. But instead, I was forced to go coll to apparently "sit for a quiz". Which actually turns out to be a session of "waste time and chit chat with your lecturer" class. The worst part is that the person who actually managed to convince me to go to coll today did not show up because apparently he can't wake up. And he even stays in the stupid hostel while I have to travel all the way from Shah Alam. Moving on to the positive side, I managed to catch a lil shut eye in class since my lecturer decided to come late by say.... 1 and a half hours.

Anyway, what I rreally want to say is that...... I dreamt about Shen-Ly again during that ridiculously short period of nap. And it felt so real that I actually hoped with all my heart that I won't have to wake up.....ever. In the dream, I somehow was able to ride a superbike which really is weird coz I can't even ride a bike. And she was clutching my waist really tightly as i sped along the highway (yes, i know it sounds crazy). And I sped all the way into a TESCO. I know.. why TESCO? Then we went shopping for stuff and walking around pushing the trolley together. And I have this habit of hugging Shen-Ly from behind and kissing her neck while she's absorbed in a book in MPH or lookin at smt. And she always gets startled by it. =) Well, it's the same in this case and she spun around and plant a gentle kiss on my lips. God... It felt so real. she held my hand as we walked on and, get this, she asked me to stop her from going to Russia. But then again, it could be because I really don't want her to leave, although she left already. And yea, we just kept walking around and I spent most of the time hugging her. When suddenly out of nowhere came like a dozen of police and I woke up. I felt like dying, right on the spot! All because my lecturer came.

Then, the stupid day goes by like usual. Take the bus to ktm Serdang, then train to midvalley. And I actually find it hard to walk into midvalley. Usually i head straight to the bus stop and take the U65 bus straight home but I was supposed to buy a gift for Caleb from the cell. Happy b'day big man! Which forced me to step foot into midvalley. And trust me when I say I spent the whole day strolling down memory lane. Everywhere I go, everywhere I look reminds me of Shen-Ly. Sigh. Conclusion is.. I miss her like crazy!! Once I reached home, the 1st thing I did was browse through the pictures we took together and watched some of the videos she took for me long time ago. And also viewed her FB page. And I saw some of her pictures her friends posted when they were in Russia. She seemed so happy with her life and friends. It saddens me that I can't possibly give her happiness anymore. She moved on....... Well..




I love you Lai Shen-Ly.

I really do. All the best in everything you do....